the city...

the city...
reality show yg baru selsai hari senin huhu sedih!the city bercerita tentang withney yg hidup di new york dan kerja di bidang fashion!withney punya cwok yg namanya jay he's kinda hot i think!hehe i like rockstar looking guy!and are a very cute couple !with punya 3 temen yaitu alie,erin and olivia i think olivia is look like a bicth!hehe but she kinda is!hehe but 3 of them look fabulous!and my favorite is alie!she's a model who always have trouble with her boyfriend adam
and many other story you just have to watch it!and my favorite episode was the last episode!hehehehe sgt menyentuh,full drama and many other thing that i love!ttys

thinng

the way they play...
the way they to each other of each other....
the way he really care about her...
the way she look at him...
the way they laugh together...
and talk to each other...
and they way she cry when he not call her at night...
the way he mad at her cause she ignore him...
and after all the way i can tell they are so in love!
(gw nulis pas pelajarn sejarah bosen ngantuk dan ini gw tulis untuk mella)

what's up!

hey.........
so i've been done a lot of thing lately(em not a lot but many feelings )
so saturday i go to citos to watch harry potter and the half blood prince with my mom and big bro
it was a great movie i think!but kinda boring too!i have a lot questions about from that movie!emma watson look so cute!and the whole movie was great!but at that time i was feel a lil sick so i'm kinda sleepy!but hey... you must watch that movie!
and then at sunday me and the whole family went pre month shooping!and that's just it!
and yeah...in citos there is one slice of heaven!and it is....the magazine stand or i like to call it my lil heaven(peri plus) i read some of magazine there i read life and style magzine and inside of it there is a articel about mj house what he do and blabla2 i really feel like i'm in heaven at that moment!
ok now bye...

bad day....

this is the list of the bad thing that happen today...
-di tegur guru gara2 slh ngerjain tugas...
-dia masuk
-temen2 keliatanya rada get annoy gitu sama gw idk why..
-ali marah gw katain banci
-she's hate me after all the nice thing i've done to her all the time i spend with her all the lough we share,i think its kinda like a joke but its still hurts
-joel is on the wogly list...(the list for an ugly people and he get number 70)
-i lost many followers cause of Twitter Correcting!

the good thing
em....
-i got into drama with the senior
-mella cry and i loling with nisa about it
-me and my best friend who hate me talk about so mant thing in the bus!
-lulus praktek arab
-sejarah was great
-i play the sims
and maybe that's it wait till to night...
and ps gw lg in the mood where all the things is worst than ever!so have a nice day!

ok now...because of that last post that make me remember how i feel....
here we go...

Wednesday was a beautiful day...em normal!i laugh,scream,jumping and goffing around in school!
so it was good till i ask about giving money to the driver...and cause we dont have money my dad say"kasian bgt,kita aja susah bgt nyari duitnya apa lagi mrk?ayah lg ga punya duit"before that happen i read a mail for my dad and its about bills and money all that stuff right at time i feel guilty for what i've done to them and my self!they work so hard to build this family i never see them but things to their self!and they always try to make us happy!tp gw selalu minta lebih dar itu!its like i'm not thankfull enough for what i already have...now i always keep this word in my heart "never look up always look down!there's many people who's richer than you,but there's too many people who have more dificult life than you"(ngarang)but its right! just so you know...i hate talking about money and all that stuff around it!I'M NOT RICH!and yes i'm lucky-er than those people in africa! and so do you!

hem...?

sorry nothing to blog...i have no feelings right now...
but actually i have a sad and emotional feelings at monday but idk how to describe it...so i dont post it..but i do write my diary!and now i forgot how do i feel right at that time!i think one word to describe that feeling is, disappoint!ok then ttys?

Michael Jackson - They Don't Care About Us lyrics

Skin head
Dead head
Everybody
Gone bad
Situation
Aggravation
Everybody
Allegation
In the suite
On the news
Everybody
Dog food
Bang bang
Shock dead
Everybody's
Gone mad

Chorus:
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us
All I wanna say is that
They don't really care about us

Beat me
Hate me
You can never
Break me
Will me
Thrill me
You can never
Kill me
Do me
Sue me
Everybody
Do me
Kick me
Strike me
Don't you
Black or white me

Chorus

Tell me what has become of my life
I have a wife and two children who love me
I am the victim of police brutality, now
I'm tired of bein' the victim of hate,
You're rapin' me of my pride
Oh for God's sake
I look to heaven to fulfill his prophecy...
Set me free

Skin head
Dead head
Everybody
Gone bad
Trepidation
Speculation
Everybody
Allegation
In the suite
On the news
Everybody
Dog food
Black man
Black mail
Throw the brother
In jail

Chorus

Tell me what has become of my rights
Am I invisible cause you ignore me
Your proclamation promised me free liberty, now
I'm tired of bein' the victim of shame
They're throwin' me in a class with a bad name
I can't believe this is that land from which I came
You know I really do hate to say it
The government don't wanna see
But if Roosevelt was livin', he wouldn't let this be, no, no

Skin head
Dead head
Everybody
Gone bad
Situation
Speculation
Everybody
Litigation
Beat me
Bash me
You can never
Trash me
Hit me
Kick me
You can never
Get me

Chorus

Some things in life they just don't wanna see
But if Martin Luther was livin'
He wouldn't let this be

Skin head
Dead head
Everybody's
Gone bad
Situation
Segregation
Everybody
Allegation
In the suite
On the news
Everybody
Dog food
Kick me
Strike me
Don't you
Wrong or right me

Chorus
(Repeat to end)

i think if you listen to all of his song and read all the lyric....it really mean something,he try to remind us about things.and i think is his way to say something!cause according to what i read in the internet he is such a loving person...many people use that.so he just do what people tell him to do!he NEVER trust anyone...he NEVER have a real friend so he's the lonely'est person in the world!so nobody listen to him!and making a song with a deep lyric like this is the way he speak out!

you are a lucky person

why?this video will answer it!
click here just watch it....is capture almost all the pain they feel but they look happy cause one little thing! .they dont have enough food,health,money and many other stuff that you take for granted !so feel thankful for everything you have! and we are human we keep wanting for more and more!so what if they rich?at least we can eat!have a house and many other stuff that they dont have!

sad news...

ada bom di jakarta!ya....pasti lu semua dah tau kan?pas hari jumat,pagi di 2 hotel yg berhadapan!
oh god who ever do that i wish all the worst go to hell!what kinda human want to do that?kill him self and kill other 9 people...56 orang yg lain luka parah!dan ada yg bisa nge buat orang itu mau melakukanya?oh god!sad...sad news!dan krn itu juga MU ga jd dateng wtf?terkutuk orang itu!btw..joel madden feel sorry about that news too and click here to read and click here too
ok ttys

word!

dont care what people say or think about me i just live my life and so are they!they really dont care about me and i dont really care about them too!so is about me and is not about them!this is my life and is not your life!dont take care of my life you have your own life to take care of!so i'm done!

enjoy...

heal the world
they dont care about us
childhood

nice words

now i know why....

why is good to write stuff about boys....
now here it is...
i dont put too much hope from you i just love to have this feeling about you...
cause that feeling make me feel happy every time i saw or talk to you...
i dont really want to be your girlfriend cause i know its just a waste of time...
i dont want you to know how i feel about you....
but sometime i just want to scream out loud and say i like you...
i hate that many girl like you...
but what can i do about it?
make them hate you?i'm not gonna do that!
and its really hurt me if you talking to other girl and that girl like you
is just make me jealous!
and everytime i saw you i just really dont want to see your face cause i feel stupid!
and i really want to know.....do you like me?
and if that answer is not
i know i'm gonna feel pain in my heart and i will crush into %@#!
and now i just dont know how to let go this feeling!

nice

baru dpt tugas pkn di suruh nyari artikel yg membuat kamu terinspirasi dan apa yg kamu akan lakukan untuk apalah!wow nice !dah ketemu lbh dari 5 artikel yg keren!yippie!new class was not that bad!

cry...

i cry a lot in this last week...
i cry cause i feel a pain in my heart..
i cry cause i just think everything is broken...
i cry cause i feel like i want to say something but i'm afraid to say it...
i cry cause one moment i hate my family....
i cry cause i just feel like i'm selfish...
i cry cause i'm far from god...
i cry cause i think too much about stupid things!
i cry cause i cant handle my problem
and after i cry...
i have a lot of thing in my mind...
a lot of thing to say and things i want to do
but i cry at night when i want to go to sleep and at that time i feel the best!
and now my heart broken just bacause a boy.....damn!

what???michael?what?:'-(

click here and read it!

ngasal

sometime you have let it go.....
let go all the things that disturb you...
be alone in your room and not thinking about anything and just focus on yourself
sit back and enjoy your life...
not complaning about anything...
be thankfull to god for everthing god give you....
crying out loud and scream as loud as you can and let go all the pain in your heart...
do things you always want to do....
say the word that you want to say....
and just be happy and dont care too much about things!
roller coaster
life is like a roller coaster to me...
a very slow roller coaster that move fast if someone is on my ride
that means is...
i only go fast if someone tell what to do and i cant go alone i must have someone beside me....
but if there no one beside me i will be week....
a roller coaster that use to be in the center of attention but now they in back....cause one big mistake....
that means.....
i use to be happy and going fast but now i'm not cause one big thing happen to me and that make me fell bad and chose to be alone and just have a slow ride....
because if you have slow ride you will look at thing slowly and study them get to know them and now what you doing and know what your doing is right and if make one small mistake you will know it and make it gone.
but if you go fast...
you just have ride full of fastness you not see thing clear you just have ride!a ride that if you make problem you will not know it until you stop for a while and try to fix it but you have no time...there is many people who want to ride you...to many that make you fell tired and cant stop
and because you tired and you cant stop you cant fix you problem and beacause of that problem you make a huge mistake....a mistake that could leave you a broken roller coaster and a broken roller coaster can only have a slow ride....

time machine

if you asking what is that?is a time machine search it on google!if you have a time machine what will you do?go to past a change the things you do wrong or see your feature?if you ask me me i will go to past and change things i do wrong and live the life that i already change! cause i want to know what if i did not do that, what will be different? why did i dont want to see my feature?cause the past is leading you to your feature...(i think)i have a good and a bad past time!we all make mistake!and i've done a lots mistake in my life and i want to change thing in the world if i can!and go to time when michael jackson die and maybe i will save his life!(lebay)!and this is some of the thing i want to change if i have a time machine.....and please if you have one can i borrow it?or buy it?and if there ins in this world i want to know how do you make it?ok here it is
-i want to go back to 1990 why?just want to see my parent datting! are they a cute couple?
-back to 1945 when indonesia rule!
-1994 i want to see my brother when he still a baby
-1996 when i was born i want to see the proses!and how do i look and how loud i cry?
-2000 i want to go to LA and tell michael jackson all the things he will done in the next 9 year and tell him to be carefull
-1996 again i want to see good charlotte!the year they making music or sing?
-2004 i want to tell joel that he will breakup with hilary duff and dating nicole and have kids!and i also want to tell nicole :D
-2005 i want to cry and mad at my and ask her to not giving birth of the baby she preagnat with and ask her to kill it!and let her know what will happen if she did!
-2008 i want to know if i have no borther!is my life will be diffrent?
and many2 more

another mj video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CjK169h7bgQ&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eO0Q2yu1pzk
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxkVaYlrfh8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Drc6gARRBT8

----------------------love you michael jackson---------------------------------------

hey again!

so almost all my post is about michael jackson right?heeh sorry i've been in love with his song,video,lyric,profile and his life idk why....but i just love him!start when he die!weird huh?yep
btw i dont get why there is some people who making fun him or hate him i dont get it!he's a human who...have AMAZING heart!he have AMAZING voice talent and many2 more! i love him!

click2

Michael Jackson Will You Be There

Michael Jackson - Heal The World

Michael Jackson - Man in the mirror

we are the world

Michael Jackson - Black or White

some of michael jackson song that i love

-Thriller
- Beat It
- Billie Jean
-Man In The Mirror
-Dirty Diana
-Bad
-The Way You Make Me Feel
-Heal The World
-Will You Be There
-You Are Not Alone
- ABC
- Rock With You
-Earth Song
-Smooth Criminal
- Remember The Time
- Blood On The Dance Floor
-Scream
-They Don't Care About Us
-Stranger In Moscow
a lot of song huh?hehelove him!

michael jackson man in the mirror lyric

I'm gonna make a change, for once in my life
It's gonna feel real good, gonna make a difference
Gonna make it right...

As I, turn up the collar on my favorite winter coat
This wind is blowin' my mind
I see the kids in the street, with not enough to eat
Who am I, to be blind?
Pretending not to see thier needs
A summer's disregard, a broken bottle top
And a one man's soul
They follow each other on the wind ya' know
'Cause they got no where to go
That's why I want you to know

Chorus:
I'm starting with the man in the mirror
I'm asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
(If you wanna make the world a better place)
Take a look at yourself, and then make a change
(Take a look at yourself, and then make a change)

(Na na na, na na na, na na, na nah)

I've been a victim of a selfish kind of love
It's time that I realize
That there are some with no home, not a nickle to loan
Could it really be me, pretending that they're not alone?

A willow deeply scarred, somebody's broken heart
And a washed-out dream
(Washed out dream)
They follow the pattern of the wind, ya' see
'Cause they got no place to be
That's why I'm starting with me
(Starting with me)

Chorus
(Repeat - ad lib)

Make that change.

in love with that song!and i love michael jackson!

what happen today...

gw sama nabila pergi ke citos....mau nonton hannah montana movie!and we did watch that movie it was great!habis itu kita makan di burger king and beli gw majalah!ke peri plus,keliling ampe puas...gw sama nabila dah capek dan kita memutuskan untuk cari tempat duduk sekalian beli minum ada 4 pilihan yaitu:j.co,aw,starbucks&burgerking!dan setelah melihat2 celanga celongo kita memutuskan untuk ke starbucks(jah sok padahal ga tau cukup ato ga duitnya) n yep kita beli starbucks pas liat2 menu loh kok semua mahal ya?gw milih ice vanila latte nabila liat2 lagi n dia juga milih yg sama...but,pas ngasih duitnya mbaknya bilang"dek duitnya kurang"oh gosh malu gw dia ngakak!ehem2 dia nanya cuy ada ga lu?gw tanya lu?n then mbak itu cek lagi dan ternyata mbak itu yg salah ngitung!GUEBLEK!TOLOL bikin malu kita aja mbak/mas!(hehe soalnya tu muka ga jelas abstrak gmn gitu!blehehe sok cakep gua!tp bener mukanya oval tai lalet di jidat kyak orang indiol!(india tolol)gitu jd kita dapet starbucksnya!yippie!mas yg ngasih kyak ga iklas gitu!hehe...di lempar ga jelas!ya udah dgn wajah beribu perasaan kita keluar dan duduk di luar!gw sama ENBI! ketawa sendiri!hehe....maklum malu getho louwch!ake KhAn mAlUw(alay mode on)hehe....setelah kejadian indiol itu kita muter lagi dan kita ketemu CINTA LAURA! omg gw langsung minta tanda tangan dan peluk dia erat2 dan minta foto bareng!(gak lah mana mungkin tolol abis klo gw ngelakuin itu)ga lama setelah itu gw ama enbi pulang!n that's it!ttys!

hannah montana the movie...

ok so here the story....gw sama nabila janjian mau nonton hannah montana the movie,so we did it was a great movie(for us)hehe filmnya bagus!lucu seru n ga ngebosenin!bagi gw filmnya lebih bagus dr pd hsm3!why?cause....ini lbh bercerita and ada moralnya!(jih sok bgt dah gw)yoi dia terlalu seneng jd hannah montana and that make her forgot about her real life and who she is!dan krn itu bpknya bw dia pulang ke hometownya!n she living her normal life!dia ketemu cwok yg sumpah bg gw dia cakep abis!to see his face click here oh gosh he's cute!but "M" is cuter hehe!and then after she live her old life she dont want to be hanna again...there's a part of the movie that make cry a bit(hehe biasa lemot)when she sing a song about her life and....bla2 pokoknya bagian itu menyedihkan! at the end dia ngasih tau rahasianya!tp cman untuk orang2 yg ada di hometownya!and that's it!more blog to come...ttys

michael jackson interview

mj interview part 1
mj interview part 2
mj interview part3
mj interview part4
mj interview part5
mj interview part6
mj interview part7
mj interview part8
mj interview part9
mj interview part10
watch all of it!:-)

michael jackson death...

as you all know he's gone forever!but many questions....
gw penasaran bgt ama cerita hidupnya!kalo ada buku atau film tentang kisah hidupnya....pastinya gw bakal nonton atau beli!

td malem gw nonton remembering michael jackson....and i cried!oh gosh acara megah bgt!
tp yg gw anehin...dia islam kan?knp di di nyanyiin lagu gereja?weird huh?
trus kemaren gw nonton interview dia...10 part!it was great interview!dia bilang masa kecilny susah,dia benci sama bpknya,dia cinta anak kecil and he's a shy person!omg!ada bagagian dmn dia naik ke atas pohon kayak anak kecil and he he say"i rather play a ballon fight or climbing a tree"
trus orang yg nge interview bilang really?"yeah i rather do that!"omg ge terharu bgt pas dia cerita tentenag masa kecilnya tentang how does he really fell to be on stage and other stuff!you must watch the whole interview!and good bye michael jackson we will always love you!

question and answer part2

hi!
hello!

so what r you doing?
playing a very cute game!and thinking what should i do for tonight

what are you thinking?
should i sleep or watch michael jackson memorable thing?

for me you should do the watch thing!
ok then!move on

ok....you love mj?
start when he die!heehe idk!i start listen to his song!and i love all of them!i cry when i listen to your not alone!and i cry when i watch one of his interview!he have a bad childhood i think!

do you have a bad childhood?
NO!i love my childhood memory!i never want to leave my childhood!its beautiful!i have the best childhood memory!i love it!

why?
cause....emh actually i love the time before my lil brother born!the time when i'm be the last kid and the youngest sibling?hehe i love being kid!and there is so many reason why i love my childhood!

how about now?
kinda sucks!but i try to make my self happy!i must!and i need to grow up!face it!i dont want just sit here and please everyone!no!i must do something in my life!i want to make a change!

good!i hope you can make it!
thx

ok....how is your day?
good.....normal!just at home doing nothing!and watch mj top 40 hits!

really?is that good?mj?
is really good!i love him!and yeah i watch mj interview!i cry!he such a poor man!he still acting like a kid!i love him!

more than gc?
ehehe..yeah!i mean he make a great music he's a legend !gc is my fav band of all!but now i like mj more!sorry good charlotte!

what are listening right now?
good charlotte emotionaless..then i gonna change to mj ghost!

are you sad?
nope!just normal felling!

close your eye and what is in your mind?
dead body!

why you thinking about that?
idk..?mj?i really sad about his death!

person you love?
my mom?

no...i mean boy...
joel madden,benji madden and someone who play jack in unfabulous!

no i mean in real life you know at your age..?
hehe there is someone but i'm so over him!

who?
why do you want to know?letter after....a?

b!
yep i love b!b is his nick name but his real name i'm not gonna tell you!

ok then good bye! bye!

great

"comfort zone is uncomfortable zone but you make it comfortable"-mario teguh
"idk the key to success but the key to failure is trying to please everybody"-bill cosby
"sesunguhnya orang yg mencela anda tidak akan peduli apakah anda sukses atau tidak"-mario teguh
"jika seseorang menyakini seluruh mimpi-mimpinya maka seluruh alam semesta akan membantunya mewujudkan seluruh mimpi2 itu menjadi kenyataan"-the alchemist

i want say this for you

i'm sorry of acting like this i'm sorry you use to be my friend!and we are bff!and i dont care what you do i just want things back to normal!i miss you!and please forgive me!

question and answer

how are you?
bad

why?
some stupid person i like just gone and i have a fight with my bff

wow how do you fell now?
lil bit in love,missing someone,sad but happy at the moment,bored but i know i got things to
do,full of hope and mad at my self its all mix up!

what do you really want right now?
bag,peace in my heart,able to forget him,fresh mind,pizza and hug from my mom

if today is your last day to live what will you do?
kiss my mom,say good bye to everyone on facebook and twitter then i pray and pray till i die

what are doing right now?
internet,looking at who online on gc.com and thinking what should i do next

what will happen in next 3 month?
ehm...my family broke,they have enough money to pay for 3 of us i will be not happy but i try to make my self happy and things will get worst:-P

why do you think it will happen like that?
just thinking!i've been thinking about that a long time ago thats why i hate my lil bro!

why you hate your lil bro?
cause he sucks,when my mom tell me she pregnat again i cry and scream i dont want a new brother!then i try to like it and i did but when he get older he been nothing but sters all of us!he a shit in the family the person who make things worst!without him maybe my life will be better!i hate him but sometime i thankfull to have him in this family!there's a bad and good side of him but the bad side is bigger!idk why!when i look into his eye and ask how could i hate this lil innocent baby?i have no answer for that!but i know why i hate him!sometime i think i want to kill him!but how could i?and go to time machine and not let him to live and see what will happen if he never born?and idk when i grow i will still hate him or not...

wow did your mom know that you hate him?
yes but she dont know that much!

your dad?
yep he know!and hate me for hate-ing him

the person you love the most?
my mom and my self!

friend?
i dont have many friend you know....just some of them but they dont know me enough!they not always there for me, my mom is my bffffff!

what are litsening right now?
some slow and sad song

you like it?
yeah...i like any kind of music but mostly some song abou life and love and song that have deep lyric

ok then.....you like gc dont you?
yeah!i love them

why?
em....too long to answer this but they are great!

ok then thx!

i miss him!

i miss you soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much!

100%iseng

sayangnya aku tdk bisa di dkt mu lagi
aku tdk bisa menemani mu...
melewati hari bersama mu...
berbagi canda tawa....
bermain bersama...
berbagi cerita...
kau yg biasanya menjadi teman ku....
kini kau bagaikan sesuatu yg indah yg takut ku sentuh...
kau sesuatu yg ku jauhi karna ada hal baik jika aku menjauhi mu...
hal yg sulit kau jauhi...
dan aku juga sulit menjauhi hal itu
tp aku bisa menjauhinya
i'm afraid to say sorry cause i know is not my fault...
but its yours...
so....face it!
apologize to me...

argh i hate this part!

the part when i thinking about my feature
the part when im in love with hopeless boy
the part when i fell lonely
the part when i want so many thing that i know i cant have
the part when i think my life is soooooooo boring
the part when all the thing around me is.....
the part when i thinking about the next 3 month!
the part when i had trouble with my life and i cant control it
i hate the part when i want to do something but i'm afraid to do it
and i hate the part of everything!
(sorry lg emosi ga jls)